that’s the title of a tv-series that I really liked back in 2019 or 2020. I even created a .docx file to save screenshots and quotes from the show. And today, while digging for some work files in my old OneDrive, I saw the file sitting there, inside a dusty folder. So I decided to put it in here for no reason.
I realized I didn’t have a sense of humor
I get these moments when I have to lie down because everything feels sort of too much, and I look up and see the blue, or the grey, or the black and I feel myself melting into it. I feel free, and happy, innocent, like a dog
Sometimes everything is suddenly really simple, you step out and you see where you are really clearly. You see yourself, and you think, ‘Fuck this shit.
I’m bad at apologizing to people, but sometimes I know I should
It’s fucking weird having a photo of yourself
I sometimes wonder if I should just become an alcoholic. It means you’ve always got something to do.
Some people get embarrassed dancing. I don’t. I think it’s when I feel most myself. I get embarrassed talking, well, after talking, when I realized I’ve said something stupid.
I tended not to feel things. For a long time, I was good at it. Good at feeling absolutely nothing. I didn’t even have to try. I just didn’t.
It’s strange. A lot of the time you don’t register the important moments as they happen. You only see that they were important when you look back.
I think maybe my dad spent his whole life trying to avoid silence. When you have silence, it’s hard to keep stuff out
James: I don’t like my life
Alyssa: So do something
Gotta fight the system, you got to. Because we live in properly fucked up time, don’t you forget that.
It’s much easier to think someone’s the answer if you haven’t seen them for years. Because they’re not really real. People can’t be answer, they’re just more questions.
I’ve just turned 18. And I think I understand what people mean to each other
You can pretend that things aren’t your fault, that you’re not a bad person, but deep down, you always know that you are.
It’s weird knowing that you’re gonna die. You feel like you’re old, and you know everything, so you don’t give a shit anymore
The problem with a person having a lack of love is that they don’t know what is looks like, so it’s easy for them to get tricked, to see things that aren’t there. But then I guess we all lie to ourselves all the time.
It’s shit being dead, isn’t it? You miss everything
Jere